I haven’t written anything here for weeks. Sorry if you’ve been waiting on the latest update (which I doubt) but lockdown 2.0 got in the way and priorities have changed.
Doing anything creative seemed like a bit of a chore, so I stopping writing. COVID has caused enough unpleasant tasks and experiences, so I didn’t want any additional ones that weren’t mandatory.
But now I’m back because I sort of missed it. I’ve been reading the various wordpress blogs I follow and realised that I miss the habit of churning out a few words when I’m excited, annoyed or simply bored.
I have to say – and I don’t think I’m along in this – the certainty and structure of Lockdown 1.0 was a lot easier to deal with. I had a lovely routine to my days, with lots of yoga, meditation, reflecting writing and reading. This time round, I’ve a lot more work on, I’m regularly confronted with people flouting the rules and just wish it was all over soon.
So it’s back to a focus on what I can control, which is a lot healthier. I’ve been running more (really: the evidence is on my Instagram feed) and working on my mindfulness. If that isn’t a contradiction in terms. The recent unwelcome reappearance of my epilepsy was the wake-up call to take my wellbeing back into consideration and do something more proactive about it. I spend more time outside and less time in front of a screen.
And yet, here I am. Tapping away on a laptop keyboard, indoors, while seated on my fat arse. It’s another form of self-care, I think. Some time to think and write, even if the output won’t win any prizes. It’s just nice to get the thoughts and reflections out of my head and onto the screen.
Anyway, there we are. The first blog post in weeks. There’ll be another along any minute, mark my words.